I had called April the day before and she said that she could see me the next morning at 11am.  I almost didn’t show, but I had heard that churches sometimes gave out money and lodging to the homeless.  If I knew any better though, my mother had probably warned her about giving me any cash.  My mother, after all, was the one who had told me to contact her.      April worked at
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January 14, 2021

When waves collide….

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….shipwrecks happen. I’ve been watching a show called The Affair with my wife recently, about two people who leave their good spouses and good relationships and crash together in a twisted mess leaving tons of wreckage behind.  This has got me thinking on humanity, and the many mistakes people make and what drives people to do such things…. Tell me you haven’t looked at another person and thought “I think I could possibly fall in

November 24, 2019

Are Twelve Steppers Really THAT Judgemental?

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Are Twelve Steppers Really That Judgemental or Just Plain Frustrated? I must admit that I’ve been doing this recovery thing for eighteen years, and while I had a several year hiatus from the rooms of twelve step meetings, I never stopped working on my spiritual, emotional, and mental growth and the relationship with my higher power.  I’d venture to say that I’ve been to close to 1500 meetings in my life.  I’ve also spoken at
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The sound of doors slamming in the distance, and the quick beep of horns signaling cars being unlocked woke me from my light sleep.  The air inside the laundry room was dry and dusty, and yet the old blankets and towels that I had piled together as a makeshift bed between a dryer and the wall smelled extremely musty.  I awoke wiping the sleep from my eyes and immediately wanting to light up a cigarette. 
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November 8, 2019

The Therapeutic Effect

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“The therapeutic effect of one addict helping another is without parallel” -Basic Text, Page 68 The therapeutic effect of one addict helping another IS without parallel, however this type of service towards one another should not ONLY be extended in times of sheer desperation.  Too many recovering addicts, it seems, forget the principles of fellowship, and lifting one another up.  Extending a hand to those in the same boat as us should be a principle
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