July 27, 2019

When You Write A Book Your Ultimate Dream Is To Get It Featured On The Ellen Or Oprah Show One Day, Or On International Newsstands. However, There’s A Certain Mold That You Must Fit Into In Order To Even Make That Dream A Reality…. It Was A Crossroads That I Had To Come To When I Wrote The Book. Do I Want To Tell My Whole Story Truthfully Exactly As It Happened Or Do I…

July 22, 2019

Let’s Talk About This Pic Real Quick: This Picture Represents Overcoming Fear. This Is My Beautiful Niece-in-law (if that’s a word 😜). I Used To Be Terrified Of Babies, Not Only Holding Babies But Just Being In A Room With Them. Nooooooo, I Wasn’t Scared That I’d Want One. I Was Scared That I’d Hurt One. Babies To Me Represent Fragility, They Are The Most Delicate Things, And I Don’t Trust Myself When It Comes…

June 3, 2019

We all need to find what works for us… Life should be lived to the fullest, but for some of us certain hours, days, weeks or even seasons are spent merely trying to survive the nightmare within our own minds and bodies.  We must find whatever coping mechanisms, or tricks to manage our inner turmoil.   Mine is anxiety and depression but mostly anxiety.  I thank God for my anxiety/panic disorder.  I don’t know why…

May 2, 2019

So, I just took a quick long weekend trip to Key West Over the past few days. I never thought I was a fan of Key West. I had been there two times earlier in recovery and all I saw was drinking and debauchery everywhere. That’s what I always assimilated the island with. Now, another decade later, and I went back to the island and had an entirely different experience. This is because of a…

April 19, 2019

The back right tire catches some gravel on the shoulder, and starts to slide as I grab the steering wheel and try to pull the car back in line. The car swerves back and forth until finally gaining traction. The blue bandana around my head is drenched in sweat as my teeth clench tightly at the leather belt that is wrapped around my bicep. “Start me up” by The Rolling Stones is blaring out of…