April 5, 2019

“Gold authenticity can only be tested under maximum fire. The same holds true with regard to manhood.” -Moutasem Algharati Gold was the goal. Since I was a child I’ve been in love with gold, I would see the chains and the rings on the hip hop artists that I listened to and I longed to have my own. Gold was that unattainable thing that was just out of reach that I could chase. While silver…

March 29, 2019

Have you ever fell into a trance or serious day dream while driving and snapped out of it a mile or two down the road and then wondered how you managed to stay on the road without crashing? I know I have. Maybe I’m the only one? I’ll snap back into reality and my presence there in the car and wonder in amazement how I managed to stay in my lane when my mind clearly…

March 25, 2019

We’ve all been tempted by forbidden fruit at least a few times in our lives, and the mass majority of us have bitten into it and felt the repercussions of it.  Whether it was drugs, or theft, or gossip or adultery, there’s no doubt that there are temptations around every turn.  As a man, I often find myself looking around at other beautiful women at the gym, in the mall, or social media and wondering…

March 23, 2019

One of the biggest benefits of my recovery walk is to travel and explore the world, and share my hope with the people of it…. “Why don’t you do things locally?”, “Why are you worried about people in other countries when there’s so many people here that need help?” are questions that I often receive that make me wince inside. This question usually comes from people that are unaware of the work that myself and…

March 21, 2019

My body was found by two young men cutting behind a church at dawn the morning after Easter.  They were on their way to work when they found my body, cold and blue sprawled out on the back steps of a church in downtown Bel Air.  I had had a drug induced heart attack, and hypothermia and had been left there for dead.  I saw the guy that found my body about a year later…