November 20, 2019

The sound of doors slamming in the distance, and the quick beep of horns signaling cars being unlocked woke me from my light sleep.  The air inside the laundry room was dry and dusty, and yet the old blankets and towels that I had piled together as a makeshift bed between a dryer and the wall smelled extremely musty.  I awoke wiping the sleep from my eyes and immediately wanting to light up a cigarette. …

November 8, 2019

“The therapeutic effect of one addict helping another is without parallel” -Basic Text, Page 68 The therapeutic effect of one addict helping another IS without parallel, however this type of service towards one another should not ONLY be extended in times of sheer desperation.  Too many recovering addicts, it seems, forget the principles of fellowship, and lifting one another up.  Extending a hand to those in the same boat as us should be a principle…

July 27, 2019

When You Write A Book Your Ultimate Dream Is To Get It Featured On The Ellen Or Oprah Show One Day, Or On International Newsstands. However, There’s A Certain Mold That You Must Fit Into In Order To Even Make That Dream A Reality…. It Was A Crossroads That I Had To Come To When I Wrote The Book. Do I Want To Tell My Whole Story Truthfully Exactly As It Happened Or Do I…

July 22, 2019

Let’s Talk About This Pic Real Quick: This Picture Represents Overcoming Fear. This Is My Beautiful Niece-in-law (if that’s a word 😜). I Used To Be Terrified Of Babies, Not Only Holding Babies But Just Being In A Room With Them. Nooooooo, I Wasn’t Scared That I’d Want One. I Was Scared That I’d Hurt One. Babies To Me Represent Fragility, They Are The Most Delicate Things, And I Don’t Trust Myself When It Comes…

May 20, 2019

“We need to stop just pulling people from the river. We need to go upstream and find out why they’ve been falling in.” -Desmond Tutu The river of addiction never stops flowing. Hundreds of thousands fall into it and are swept out at sea. There are hundreds of nets, platforms and resources set up at the mouth of the river to catch people before they are swept out at sea. However at the part of…